Post-Wedding Thoughts

Well, here we are! After a lifetime of waiting (and I mean that literally. I mean, I am a girl. We talk about marriage and being a grownup long before we actually get to that point), I am OFFICIALLY married to the man I love!

So, to start off my regular posting again, I have decided to conclude the post I last wrote. Last time, I wrote about pre-wedding feelings. Now, I feel it is only appropriate to add my post-wedding thoughts.

I am finding it difficult to put my feelings into words. I have always had a difficult time expressing myself, but this is a completely new realm for me. So I beg your patience as I struggle to share my thoughts.

One thing that amazes me is how much I have already come to rely on Jeremy being in my life. I can't imagine being without him. I don't know if that happened once we were married, or just gradually throughout our dating, but now the word "eternity" has a much more profound and real meaning for me. Instead of idly thinking about how "someday" I will be married for eternity, it has happened! There is an incredibly powerful covenant bracing our marriage, and as long as I try my very best, that covenant will keep us together.

I have realized that many of the things that I need to work on are things that I can rely on Jeremy to help me with. He can encourage and support, even when I feel overwhelmed or exhausted. Marriage means teamwork, and even things which I was used to doing alone are much easier with a partner.  For example, I mentioned that I am not very good at communicating. I have learned how important communication is, and that I am not alone in trying to express myself.

I find it fun to have someone constantly there to share my thoughts with. Whenever I have a random thought or joke to share, I know that Jeremy is there to listen. And he is patient enough to laugh (which is extremely gratifying) as well as to provide a shoulder to cry on, and create a whole slew of inside jokes. Life is a roller coaster. It is nice to have someone along for the ride.

I guess I never realized how lonely life can be until recently, when I found I don't have to be lonely anymore. I know that sound silly, but really, there is no other way for me to describe it! Thank you Jeremy, for making me indescribably happy, and for being willing to put up with me for eternity. You certainly have your job cut out!